I'm not typing this to destroy our relationship or to speak badly about you. But I've always kept silent whilst you attacked me. I just want you to know what I'm thinking, since we don't talk anymore.

I've shown I care, more than you will ever know. I've saved you from being kicked out so many times. I begged, I cried and I convinced them to let you stay when you pushed them too far. I never told you, because the last thing I wanted was you to feel like you owe me.If I didn't care about what was happening in your life I wouldn't have encouraged and tried to give you advice about uni. I wouldnt have taken your side even though I knew you were wrong. My world does not have to revolve around you to show I care.

You've disrespect our parents by expressing how "badly" they have treated you. Do they feed you? Do they provide shelter? Do they let you stay in this house free of board or rent? Do they wash your clothes and clean the house on their days off? Answer those question for me. What have they asked of you? They need you to show responsibility and initiative. Prove to them you're an adult and you will earn respect.Keep your word when you're going to come home instead of making them wait. Are those things hard for you to do? They've tried to change, have you? If you honestly think you are doing enough, then so be it. If you're not happy maybe it'll do you some good to learn about life the hard way. Pay some rent, budget a little and see how hard it is to survive.

You've never spoken badly about me? I beg to differ. I've seen your twitter and I've read your blog. You've spoken badly about me to everyone, it's all over the internet. If there is a defence or retaliation for that, than I welcome hearing it. Talking shit about me all over town and to your friends, thats hurtful and immature. But I still forgave you, and I still tried to talk to you. I've kept silent, I don't post bad things about you on the world wide web, and quite frankly I need to talk about things with him and others because you act like I'm dead and like I have done terrible things against you.

When you had a significant other that you spent every opportunity to see, I didn't complain. You told him things, you complained about life . That's what you're suppose to do when you find someone you trust and cherish. And we would still be like that if you hadn't made nothing into a major issue. Overtime, we stopped talking as much because you would always be angry when I came home. I could never talk about everyything I wanted, without a rage attack from you. I wasn't allowed to tell you my stories but i had to listen attentively to yours. Therefore I didn't want to talk to you in general. When someone displays an attitude like that towards you, you honestly don't want to communicate with them.If you want to deny that, then that's fine. But you need to take respnsibility for the distance that has occured.

I know I've changed, but it has been for the better. I've learnt to become more independant and started making my own decisions for myself without consulting you and that's the reason we don't see eye to eye anymore. That's the reason you hate me so much now. You just want me to agree with you like I always have. If it were up to you, I wouldn't be allowed to form my opinion or make my own choices. In the end, if we break up whether you were civil towards me or not, there would be nothing you could do to comfort me. I would heal and get over it in my own time. And that is the reality of it all. I wouldnt need your support because it takes personal growth and time in order for a person to heal. Words, money and material goods won't ever ease the pain.

If you can't see whats destroying our relationship then that's sad. I hope in time you will. I know you hate him however Kev treats me good and always puts me first. Right now I'm happy with him. The only way to make you happy would be if I broke up with him. Is that what you want? You don't want me to be happy? You want me to break up with him so you can comfort me? If you cared about me you would respect my choice. I don't need you guys to be friends, but you should at least be courteous, instead of deathstaring him at any opportunity. You don't know him at all, and you never get the opportunity to because you're unwelcoming to conversation. You've met him less than ten times and you guys rarely talk, yet you've made your mind up about him.
I admit me and kevin have been a bit clingy at times, but we do different courses and finding time together alone at uni is hard. We have to study hard and holidays are a good time to catch up. I hang out and see my friends everyday at uni. We schedule lunch dates and catch up. I don't report every single detail to you, so you wouldnt know. When I go on msn I don't only talk to him and I rarely log on before 10 or 11 when uni is on. During stuvac, thats the only time all day I talk to him. But that's still too much for you. When I am on, I also talk to jen and vu everyday too, is that a problem ? The point of this all is, you've assumed and made up your mind without knowing the facts. And the reason you don't know the facts is cause I'm not allowed to say what I want without you getting angry.

But you should look at what your guy is doing to you. If you're too blinded to see it, then that saddens me more. He stands you up, doesn't keep his word, doesn't call back, evades you all the time, enjoys group outings more than one on one time. Aren't those signs telling you something? Your guy has disappointed you, neglected you and doesnt seem to care, yet you forgive him and love him. Where is the logic in that? Explain that to me. Everyone can see that the relationship is strange, you are the one who is blinded.Like you said, he is an outsider. He's done you wrong in so many ways but you're still holding on. I started becoming independant and formed relationships and opinions without your help and now you hate me. You're picking everyone else over your family. Don't take us for granted. Your friends have expressed how worried they are, and also how irrational you are being right now. That's what everyone can see; immaturity and your spite. They haven't the courage to tell you because you'll dispose of them, just like you're trying to dispose of me; your own flesh and blood.

You'll always be my sister. I won't try and dispose of you as you have done to me. I'll always be here waiting for you to talk to me. I miss seeing you happy at home, your words and actions are hurtful but I won't give up. The ball is in your court right now, I hope you can calm down and reflect on everything, before it's too late.

I think that's all I want to say.
Please just think about it =)

-Chau